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Wednesday, 25 June 2008...

surfboard

the spreadsheet confirms the harbour’s

out of reach, formulae checking formulae

you encounter, then reflect. imagine

a bay built out of bookcases, washed up

down the south coast, bedraggled &

marsupial, cracking tinnies & rejecting

doctrine. it sounds like a plan if you put it

like that. milestones, timelines, now smoke

yourself silly & dribble on the cheque –

they’ve seen it all before. imagine the

snapshot less taken. all that crap you

remember. out on the patio tiny frogs

are camping. surfboard. wilderness society.

you woke up & could touchtype? no shit?

another conversation transmitted to posterity.

of course you were hoping for altered states,

or something less conditional. right.

reprising your contingencies. surfboard.

bookcases. the spreadsheet confirms.

franchisee, revisited

where the heart beats backwards, incredulous,

your music box replays its greatest hit &

all those beautiful lawyers we used to see on tv

book their time against the media

revolution, hoping their blogs are admissible.

not guilt-free, your honour, but now featuring

less carcinogens & 100% cartoon bad guys,

like china without the backing of the IOC.

now they’ve seen the bright lights, how you

gonna keep ‘em down on the server farm?

after the marriage dissolves into advertorial

you drive for days through deserted towns,

shoji tattered in the wind. i figure it’s

kind of pre-post-apocalyptic. either way,

it’s clearly not us. no way we could share

a car for that long without starting a family.

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12:59 am :: 1 comment

yes, well — best not to talk about it, really. so i didn’t. & probably won’t. in any case, despite what the previous post may have appeared to indicate (informed as it was by The Plan At That Time), we are still in tokyo. relatively speaking. which is to say, we just returned late this afternoon from 10 days in singapore & indonesia. a small selection of photos to come. travelling long distances to unfamiliar places with small but highly mobile & easily distracted people is a lot of fun. i can almost see why Gandalf & Aragorn stuck with it as long as they did. oh, & (informed as it is by The Plan That Was Still The Current Plan As At The Time I Started My Vacation) this post is going to suggest that i’m scheduled to fly out to sydney — on a strictly temporary basis — on thursday night.

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Tuesday, 04 March 2008...

statistical extrapolation

bronchial fucker, your approximate talents

page the laceration squad, chip chip

chipping. where the heart is an apple

worms rejoice, no place, no signal,

check appetites & wantings, all joy & familiarities.

under the runbook the leather boots keep walking –

was there a dance? a pitcher of bourbon?

undoubtedly. this is how you build a theory &

later, awake from it. right? it’s that or

piss yourself, sometimes both. several

stories down, a wig rides the ginza line,

asleep & drooling slightly. wipe the baby

off your suit, numbnuts. fair dinkum,

you call that troubleshooting?

you only need process when no one has answers.

everbeige

eyes flick past the sleeping child blankets can’t contain,

fearless & impervious to cold. a thousand hondas

turn left simultaneously where strictures & blockage

describe the self / this model craves nicotine

& the kind of sausage they don’t sell here,

your tracksuit pants a gesture to athleticism

the body fails to follow, choking on its cocktail

frankfurt. all night the conversation traces

circles, outliving your disappointments.

once & future kink, mouth full of consequences.

otherwise you ash your ciggie, ebisu

department store letdown, even after shopping

in theory & beers lined up endlessly,

a bit like melbourne without the footie.

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what doesn’t make you paranoid — you probably haven’t thought about…

precise dates to be determined — but i’m a sea-sick sailor on a ship of noise… oh, wait. i mean, it’s nausea, oh nausea, & we’re gone. that is, bye bye tokyo, it’s been surreal. got a letter from davey just the other day / said living in queensland is not ok. what? take 2 (& call me in the morning). uh. all that scratching is making me itch?

collating interim score — judges’ decision will be final & no correspondence will be entered into.

bound for — botany bay? if this is april, this must be sydney. or definitely no later than may. but in any case, sydney. yeah. stop me if you’ve heard this one before.

put your hands on the wheel — let the golden age begin…

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05:26 am :: 4 comments

Saturday, 01 March 2008...


a(nother) new toy — bought myself a new camera, which has, if you haven’t already guessed, a youtube video capture mode… just when you thought this blog had set standards that it wouldn’t go below…

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Wednesday, 27 February 2008...

hypertrophy

a word to the wise left you breathing, stunned

& localised, the settings controlled, no, contrived

to achieve exactly this, the spaces flooded like muscle

or memory, once accessed, never settled, the ongoing

negotiations & blue sky revisionism your heart

collates, then collates again. his visage, ravaged?

if you say so. & what’s to stop you? a faint sense

of impropriety? here in anachronismland the rides

only stop for accidents, a flexible approach to

maintenance. time to don your other hat? & you do,

spraying language. several broken dictionaries,

drinking heavily. 9:25 am in the franchise centre, but

capital won’t wait for the late shift. babies return you

to the corporeal & you fight it privately. don’t mope –

homeopath to the stars might not fit on your business

card, lost in the aether somewhere near yamate dori, but

there’s time enough for regret, to act the buffoon. almost

everything’s optional & you tick over, presuperannuated,

postrelevant, arms full of consumer credit. to market,

to market, you are a fat pig.

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Wednesday, 20 February 2008...

overthinking/unaustralian

i seen it coming, no, years ago maybe

there were indicators you ignored, hastening

towards this current inertia, almost weightless,

that was probably it, heightened, you must be

joking, i figure the fugue becomes the tempest

your allies recognise as sleet, fringes barely

ruffled. a prescription for uselessness, litany

of obstructionism & the pointless

lashing, that’s what you meant, temper,

trying out the parochial suit again, red-faced

& weeping, so futile, lame as europe with your

petty racism, everyone knows it’s frustrating,

everyone’s reading the same news feeds,

not the kids though, they’re chewing happily

through their percentage of GDP, unaware of

how your failures are being brought to bear.

a bear? where? that’s not exactly the way the plan

unfolds, but close enough. a giant lamington

constructed by migrants, there’s not really any bears,

sorry, but later we visit the zoo & disturb a koala,

then sketch the markets’ voodoo oscillations. daddy’s

going to work now, it’s what’s expected, no point

complaining about hip-hop grammar, shopping is

entertainment & the world derives from there.

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02:49 am :: 1 comment

Sunday, 03 February 2008...

so as it turns out — lenovo were planning to send me my laptop in installments, but over a series of weeks rather than days… (always a risk when the small print is written in kanji…) but anyway, my do-it-yourself X61 self assembly kit arrived a couple of weeks back, & it’s pretty sweet… nice keyboard, weighs next to nothing… seems to run a little warm maybe — the palm-rest gets a little toastier than the big thinkpad, which might be interesting come summer time, but we’ll see how it goes…

things i wish i could stop:

  • wanting to buy messenger bags… although, on the other hand, i only need to buy two more to have a different bag for every day of the week… (uh, better make that one more…)
  • smoking… except, i kinda don’t wanna either… i could do without the occasional bout of hacking cough & the omnipresent brown teeth though… & yes, documented health risks, etc, etc… damn that sweet taste of laramie…
  • waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason & deciding that reading/surfing/writing for a couple of hours is a great idea…
  • flying off the handle for no good reason… who are you calling sleep deprived?

babies, they’re a virus — or, at least, they catch & then freely distribute viruses… haruki came down with something nasty last sunday & sumie & i had to take turns taking days off work to look after him… naturally, we both got mild cases of whatever it was he had as well… hana, on the other hand, sailed through the week with barely a sneeze or a sniffle… about which, don’t get me wrong, i’m not complaining in the slightest… the good news is haruki’s pretty much back to normal now… good news for everything except those parts of the house he has his heart set on picking up & banging against the floor…

snowbound — it pretty much snowed all day in ebisu today… we had some light, sleety, slushy kinda snow a couple of wednesdays back, but today was more like the real deal… not a huge amount, but enough to fake a fairly reasonable winter wonderland kinda feel… having grown up in the tropics, watching snow fall just makes me stupidly happy…

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Thursday, 10 January 2008...

40

they say it’s your birthday / well it’s my birthday too yeah / they say it’s your birthday / we’re gonna have a good time / i’m glad it’s your birthday / happy birthday to you…

argh! met up with rob for a couple of quiet ones & some dinner last night… there we were, politely minding our own business, when we were suddenly assailed by… folk music! hell, they could have just asked us to leave…

birthday loot — papa got a brand new bag! (& a wireless bike computer…) now if lenovo could see their way clear to sending me my new laptop (yesterday i received the power supply… i’m kinda hoping they’re not planning to ship it over several days as individual parts…)

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Monday, 07 January 2008...

lightly (that is, very) chilled — chiba, like most of the rest of japan, is, uh, kinda cold this time of year… didn’t stop us having a great weekend though… chiaki & hiro & kanta & emma visited on friday, coco arrived friday night & went back to tokyo on saturday evening, the kids ran riot, i found a place essentially giving away bottles of johnny walker, the weather was (mostly) fine, what more could you ask for?

hana & haruki

in which i discover, yet again, that “take a picture of me & haruki” actually means “take a picture of me, & if you can fit haruki in, great!”

hana & haruki

in which snacks are ostensibly being fairly & equitably shared out by the older sister… a game also known as “four or five for me, one for haruki” (who has just realised that the fair & equitable distribution of snacks may not be proceeding exactly as advertised…)

hana & haruki

in which the snack distribution situation warrants closer investigation…

hana's new bike

the other big (depending on your point of view) news from the weekend was the purchase of hana’s first bike…

hana's new bike

she still has a ways to go, of course, but we’ll see how it works out… i’d been thinking to get her a tricycle, & was looking at a couple of prospects when she discovered this one… i have no idea how long it will last, but it seemed like a reasonable idea…

hana's new bike

& i’m hoping that once hana grows out of it, haruki can get some use out of it too… assuming, of course, he hasn’t eaten it in the meantime…

haruki discovers there are no more scooby snax

this was the first time we’ve been to chiba since haruki’s gotten himself mobile… he spent about a day figuring out how to go up & down the different levels between the tatami room & the lounge, & the tatami room & the genkan, but once he had it sussed he started trying to follow everyone around, which is cool… he’s also showing a disturbing propensity to pull himself upright whenever he gets a chance… it was only a few weeks ago that he started crawling, but it looks like walking might not be too far off…

haruki contemplates his trail of destruction

oh, he’s also teething, & bites like a bastard… but yeah, he’s just starting to get into that transition between baby & little kid… it’s kind of exciting & a little sad at the same time - exciting because he’s developing more of his own personality & starting to figure stuff out for himself, a little sad just because he won’t be a baby all that much longer…

the kids' playhouse - yes, there's a table and chairs in there...

sumie points out that i never got around to posting any photos of the completed playhouse, which is now a rather impractical feature of the lounge room in chiba, so, uh, here it is…

who's looking through the round window now?

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09:22 pm :: 3 comments

Wednesday, 02 January 2008...

woohoo! i’m off until the 15th — had to work today, but that’s it for nigh two weeks… we’re continuing new year celebrations at (one of) sumie’s uncle’s place tomorrow, then packing up & heading out to chiba for a few days… once we get back to tokyo, got some shopping to do, some re-organising around the house… hell, i might even go to the movies if there’s anything on worth seeing…

at some point, my new laptop should (i hope) arrive… a tiny, tiny x61 thinkpad… the thing weighs next to nothing, so the plan is to drag it around in my bag & try to get some writing done… i’m not sure how much faith i have in this plan, but still - tiny, tiny laptop… at the very least, coffee & wifi, right?

oh, yeah — & yes, dave, i might even manage finally to get skype installed on one or more of my machines…

the last four or so months in bullet points — i’m know i’m gonna leave lotsa stuff out here, but bear with me… at some as yet undetermined time in the future (possibly entering week two of my vacation) these points may expand out into longer posts with many more photos… particularly the first point, which is the one about…

  • the tokyo motor show! clarence & i did the motor show thing again. can’t believe they only run this every two years. this year i took sumie’s nikon… out of close to 400 pictures, you’d think there’d be something worth posting… the new GTR was the highlight, although there were some pretty sweet concept cars too… genetically pre-determined petrolhead that i am though, i was kinda hypnotised by the dodge charger SRT8…
new GTR
Charger SRT8
  • hung out with the kids — i also have several hundred photos of small children (mostly our children) to sort through… i made it to hana’s sports day this year, which was fun… she absolutely streeted them in the sprint event, & i managed to frighten a number of kids from the older classes while hana & i were traversing the child + parent obstacle course…
i can't believe i didn't take an aussie flag...
  • now where the hell is he?!? haruki is motoring about the house on his hands & knees like there’s no tomorrow… he’s a happy kid, with the possible exception of those moments when the next spoonful of nutritious baby mush doesn’t arrive at the very instant he’s finished swallowing the previous spoonful… then he gets kinda pissed.
haruki prepares to eat the entire cot...
  • work — my major project for the year went live on october 1, & went off pretty well, which on the one hand was kinda nice, but on the other hand was kinda “well duh, we do know what we’re doing…” (well, you know, mostly.) it was a good year for the whole extended team i work with. lots of successes collectively & individually.
did i mention the 6.1 litre hemi...?
  • the country estate — haven’t spent as much time at the chiba house as i’d hoped we might, what with various work & social commitments keeping us tied up in tokyo, but it’s still nice to know that it’s there when we need it… i’m looking forward to kicking back out there this weekend like you would not believe…

that’s it? you’d think four months would have held more than that… it, uh, seemed much busier as it was happening…?

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Tuesday, 01 January 2008...

it’s almost traditional — fight off hangover, round up current number of children, go to shrine… next up this year, rehashing last year’s resolutions… i suspect overwriting the 7 so it looks like an 8 should pretty much do it…

Sumie, Hana & Haruki
me & Hana
hana on the temple steps
hana sliding

metacruft » here = tokyo | hanachan | kodomo | haruki
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happy new year

see? not actually dead, for those who might have been wondering…

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Sunday, 30 December 2007...

woah — those, uh, last few months seemed to go by kinda quick… more news to appear anon…

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